Well, I usually don't care if a new year will begin but today is different.
I think my feelings and emotions are crazy right now and this is may be the reason for wanting to write these words.
I want to be brief so here I go...
This year events were important, even if I believed them normal. Not in a particular order:
- I met Roy Khan at Helsinki Airport and attended to 2 Kamelot concerts.
- I attended to (other) 4 Pet Shop Boys concerts.
- I visited Europe twice! Now, that's crazy even for me.
- I walked 10 km in almost 2 hours, which seems like impossible in this life.
- I met a wonderful man who reminded me the emotion of love. I know he's not for me but who cares?! I'm pretty excited about him, my heart is beating again and that's all that matters.
- I worked on unfinished affairs with some other guy and finally everything is in place.
- A very personal event that I thought never was going to happen. It wasn't perfect but it was what I needed.
- I'm thinking more in what I want and not in what others want or think of me. I'm following my insticts or at least I'm trying.
- I couldn't make it to Norway because of the volcano disaster. I missed 2 Kamelot concerts.
- Work has been messing with my mind and my life. It has taken away many things from me.
- My health is not in its best shape. My body needs a break and I need to take care of it.
- My mind is also sick. My mood changes, from good to horrible, I feel trapped. It needs a break too.
- My writing has stopped. I have written some short tales and poems but my novels just don't come.
- Run 10 km. Not just walk them I want to run them!
- Get a tatto. I'm such a coward. I'm scared of needles but I hope I can make my mind and do it.
- Have a break. Well, I want to stop working for a while and go to some place to find myself again.
- Write. One of the most important things for me in the lasts years. I need to keep writing and give life to my beautiful characters.
- Improve my health and lose weight. Need to do something about my body. It's tired, needs a break and needs a doctor. And this will be my first attempt to actually lose weight. I'm not happy anymore with the way it feels and the way it looks.
- Find my Karel. Meaning? Find the man who can stand me! LOL
- Improve in my job. I want to take the next step. I don't love my job but this is someting I really have to do.
- Draw limits. I don't want to be absorbed by my job. I let it happen and now I'm trapped. I need to cut this ill relation with work.
- Change my hair color and maybe use wigs. I want to change my hair color to purple and other color. And I want to try a wig, just to know how it feels and how it looks.
- --- ADDED: I would like to buy a reflex camera and learn to take photos with it.
- --- ADDED: I would like to perfom in some way. Theatre or something in the street.
I feel so much better after writing these words. When I think of something, it is great in my head and disaster in reality. It sounds good once I have written it.
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