9 ene 2011

Bloodlust

Levanté los ojos y entonces lo vi.

Su olor me había atraído aún antes de poder mirarlo.

Pero tenía miedo de mirarlo. Ya sabía que sería mi perdición...

“Buenas tardes.”.

Su voz era melodiosa. ¿O es que mi mente ya estaba totalmente perdida? Mojé mis labios sin separar los ojos del monitor de la computadora en donde tecleaba… o al menos pretendía teclear.

“Buenas tardes.”. Sin estar segura de mi propia voz, continúe. “¿En qué puedo ayudarle?”.

“Busco al Licenciado Martínez.”.

Traté de no despegar los ojos del monitor. No deseaba verlo. La sangre me palpitaba en la sienes y la vista se me nublaba.

“Su oficina está por allá. Me parece que está en su lugar.”.

Mi voz era segura… o al menos eso pensaba. Sentía su mirada sobre mí y sentía que no podía soportarlo. Continúe con mi trabajo como si nada pasara, como si en realidad no me extrañara la presencia de este extraño.

Cuando se alejó hacia la oficina del Licencia Martínez, sólo entonces, me atreví a levantar la vista…

No era un hombre muy atractivo pero había algo en su aroma que me estaba volviendo loca. Su voz también tenía un tinte encantador que me perturbaba. Mojé nuevamente mis labios y traté de contenerme.

La mente me daba vueltas, sentía que me mareaba. No, no, debía contenerme. Pero su aroma aún flotaba suavemente a mi alrededor. Mis ojos fijos en el monitor de la computadora miraban sin mirar, todo borroso ante mi vista y aún más confuso en mi cabeza…

No podía decidir si quedarme donde estaba o levantarme y alejarme. Nadie me extrañaría si me desaparecía unos minutos. En el turno nocturno, no pasa demasiado. Casi nunca pasa nada… Hasta el día de hoy, que llega este extraño…

Y el extraño se demoró un par de horas en salir. Fue suficiente para que recuperara un poco la calma.

Pero su aroma aún me perturbaba y cuando flotó hasta a mí de nuevo, entonces supe que no tenía más remedio…

Nadie me extrañó en los minutos en los que me desaparecí. No tomó demasiado pero para mí fueron unos largos instantes llenos de placer…

La carne destrozada por mis dientes, su dulce sabor tan delicioso como el suave aroma que emanaba de su piel.

Su sangre oscura, fluyendo por sus venas desgarradas. Su corazón tan fuerte perdiendo fuerza…

Pero sobre todo, su intenso sabor, que me enloqueció aún más que su aroma…

1 ene 2011

The lioness desires

Eithne's, not me but my beautiful lady vampire, thoughts, desires, about his, not mine, beloved Karel...

Well, it has some of my own thoughts and desires, of course...

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THE LIONESS DESIRES


Now, let me remember the first time I saw his eyes…

I should have known I was lost and I was going to be forever lost.

And every time I see him, I know it is fine being lost.

I remember the way he looked that first night, oh so long ago, and how I forgot about everything else and everyone else.

I still forget everything every time I see him. The way he smells, the way he looks, the way I feel attracted to him. He is as perfect as the first time… He is getting perfect with every year.

His long black hair, his sweet green eyes, his fair skin…

And how much I desired him that night, how much I desire him even now.

I cannot describe how I tremble when he gets closer. I become a fool girl when he is around. My mind is numb, my body aches, my hands shake.

I want him and I love him.

He is my sweet dark prince and he has such power over me…

He was my dream and he is a dream.

And how much I desired him that night… And how much I desire him right now…

My sweet Karel, with his sweet body and his sweet lips…

He can take me, he can tame, he can break me, he can use me…

I would bite him, I would tear him apart, I would love him…

Now, let me feel him… against my body, inside me… Oh, so inside… Deep in my heart…

26 dic 2010

Sleepless

Late at night
When sleep won’t come
Lying awake
So conscious of me
I fix my mind
I know what I want
What I cannot have
My body desires
My mind dreams
My hands defeat
Late at night
When I give up
So conscious of you
I set my heart
I know what I need
What I cannot touch
Your body, desired
Your mind, dreamed
Your hands, defeated
Late at night
When I think of you
I know that you are
The one that I want…

25 dic 2010

The end and the beginning

This year is about to end...

Well, I usually don't care if a new year will begin but today is different.

I think my feelings and emotions are crazy right now and this is may be the reason for wanting to write these words.

I want to be brief so here I go...

This year events were important, even if I believed them normal. Not in a particular order:
  1. I met Roy Khan at Helsinki Airport and attended to 2 Kamelot concerts.
  2. I attended to (other) 4 Pet Shop Boys concerts.
  3. I visited Europe twice! Now, that's crazy even for me.
  4. I walked 10 km in almost 2 hours, which seems like impossible in this life.
  5. I met a wonderful man who reminded me the emotion of love. I know he's not for me but who cares?! I'm pretty excited about him, my heart is beating again and that's all that matters.
  6. I worked on unfinished affairs with some other guy and finally everything is in place.
  7. A very personal event that I thought never was going to happen. It wasn't perfect but it was what I needed.
  8. I'm thinking more in what I want and not in what others want or think of me. I'm following my insticts or at least I'm trying.
There are bad things in this year too. But not that bad:
  1. I couldn't make it to Norway because of the volcano disaster. I missed 2 Kamelot concerts.
  2. Work has been messing with my mind and my life. It has taken away many things from me.
  3. My health is not in its best shape. My body needs a break and I need to take care of it.
  4. My mind is also sick. My mood changes, from good to horrible, I feel trapped. It needs a break too.
  5. My writing has stopped. I have written some short tales and poems but my novels just don't come.
And finally, what I want to do next year:
  1. Run 10 km. Not just walk them I want to run them!
  2. Get a tatto. I'm such a coward. I'm scared of needles but I hope I can make my mind and do it.
  3. Have a break. Well, I want to stop working for a while and go to some place to find myself again.
  4. Write. One of the most important things for me in the lasts years. I need to keep writing and give life to my beautiful characters.
  5. Improve my health and lose weight. Need to do something about my body. It's tired, needs a break and needs a doctor. And this will be my first attempt to actually lose weight. I'm not happy anymore with the way it feels and the way it looks.
  6. Find my Karel. Meaning? Find the man who can stand me! LOL
  7. Improve in my job. I want to take the next step. I don't love my job but this is someting I really have to do.
  8. Draw limits. I don't want to be absorbed by my job. I let it happen and now I'm trapped. I need to cut this ill relation with work.
  9. Change my hair color and maybe use wigs. I want to change my hair color to purple and other color. And I want to try a wig, just to know how it feels and how it looks.
  10. --- ADDED: I would like to buy a reflex camera and learn to take photos with it.
  11. --- ADDED: I would like to perfom in some way. Theatre or something in the street.
That's all.

I feel so much better after writing these words. When I think of something, it is great in my head and disaster in reality. It sounds good once I have written it.

19 dic 2010

I want you

Crimson skies in my dark dreams

Winter winds in my summer shores

Red lust in my white nights…

Every time I close my eyes, there is your memory shinning

Every time I breathe, there is your essence fading

Relentless thoughts in my beautiful mind

Sleepless nights in my sweet bed

Dark desires in my innocent wandering…

Every time I think, there is a feeling for you

Every time I dream, there is a nightmare of you

Falling Hell in my wanted Heaven

Condemned sins in my confessed soul

Burning temptation in my purified body

Every time I love you, there is desire for you

Every time I quit you, there is love for you…

I want you… I want you… I want you…

I… want… you…

21 nov 2010

Prey

In that moment I realized the whole week had been a complete error…

- o -


I really need the job!

It has been 3 weeks since Mrs. Jones decided she was going to fire me… Oh boy, I never ever flirt with his husband but I’m pretty sure the old man lied to her. So it was my fault and I was fired…

This is my last chance. I really need the job. I have to pay the rent tomorrow and, if I don’t pay I won’t have a roof over my head.

I have tried everything but being a waitress. I could have done anything but this. The point is now I’m desperate and I need the money…

Well, let’s hope everything will be fine and I will get the job. And with the bills covered, I may be able to find another thing…

- o -

I got the job for divine intervention.

Well, not exactly but almost.

This guy, the one who interviewed me, he was not going to hire me. Of course, not so pretty girl with no experience, it was obvious that I was not gonna have the job.

But for once in a while, I’ve been lucky.

The bar’s owner arrived when I the manager was explaining why he didn’t need me. I didn’t notice him till the manager got distracted and asked me for a moment. That was when I turned my head and saw him.

He spoke a little with the manager and… It was clear they were speaking of me. I came back to my original position more angry than embarrassed. They were talking about me! I decided I couldn’t stand such humiliation and… The manager came back and told me I could start tomorrow evening.

I stood up so surprised that I just said “Thanks. See ya!”. The owner wasn’t there anymore when I left…

Well, I suppose he’s the owner. The manager was not gonna have me till he arrived. I think I should thank him when I see him…

- o -

Second night at work… It has been tough but not as much as I could imagine.

I have made enough money to pay my bills and have enough for eat. The tips are good and most of the people who come to the bar are nice. I always have thought the waitress job was horrible but it’s quite amusing.

And more amusing than the job, I have to admit, it is the bar’s owner.

God, he is hot!

I have seen him a couple of times and he really looks so damn good.

I need to thank him but I haven’t been able to do it… Every time I see him and tried to reach him, he disappears.

I hope I can see him again…

- o -

Well, this has been a great night. I had my conversation with Philip… And Philip is a great guy, actually.

I had thanked him but he said it was a pleasure helping a girl as beautiful as I am… Then I blushed and said I had work to do in an unsteady voice.

I can’t flirt with my boss! That was the reason I lost my last job! Well, it wasn’t my fault but I’m not supposed to do that, am I?

I am pretty sure he stayed where he was for a while, watching me. I just couldn’t make myself look at him again.

He is a handsome guy but I think it is not quit right flirting with him…

- o -

I can’t say no to an invitation, right? The boss invited me to have a drink… while I was working. I hope the other waitresses didn’t notice I skipped my shift… almost all my shift.

I think I’m losing my wits… But this man simply… When I’m with him it’s like I can’t think of anything else but him…

He has beautiful brown eyes and you have to love his beard, black as his hair. You could think his nose is a little pointy but it matches perfectly with his face. Did I say he is beautiful? And hot? He must work up a lot. Everything in his body is just in place.

He has a little bit of accent. Just a little… If you don’t pay attention you could missed it. I wonder where he is from…

But I’m losing my wits… He is the boss… and he is so damn sexy…

I need to regain my focus. I can’t let this happens…

- o -

And here I am… In a dark alley, behind the bar.

The night seems so dark, darker than usual.

And he seems so eager.

The idea of having him blurs my mind… And here I am with him, kissing him, touching him…

And he touches me and kisses me… I am surrender to his touch, to his eyes… He can have me, right here, right now, behind the bar, in the dark night…

And I realize this is a mistake… I realize everything is a mistake… I shouldn’t have flirted with Mr. Jones… I shouldn’t have insulted Mrs. Jones… I should have called mom… I shouldn’t have asked for a job in this bar… I shouldn’t have talked to Philip… I shouldn’t have given up to lust…

And as he sucks the blood out me (life!) I know there’s no time for regrets, just time for a last pray… God, have mercy on my soul…

23 oct 2010

In love Vampire Song

Sweet dark blood…
Death is upon you and it looks like your beauty will stand forever.
And what if you are not a prey to be killed?
What if I should keep you forever?
I could believe you do not belong to the dead.
You may belong to me
Ad what if I take you with me?
I could believe there are things meant to be
And you may be meant to be mine.
O, my love, I cannot let you die.
In this night, I see, I have found true love.
And your sweet dark blood has pierced my heart.
I know you are not supposed to die
You are supposed to live
And be forever mine
My precious lover
Walking as dead
But living instead
Death is upon you but it will always be
Because you are going to be one of Her hunters
By my side, we will kill to live…